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Beth's ten years older.
The age shows in her eyes.
30 years of trying,
and nothing's turned out right.

And pain works in circles,
as she thinks of those that she hurt.
acting out of self preservation
Cause of those who hurt her.

And the more she hates her self,
the more she lashes out.
The easier it become comes,
to spiral down.

But she doesn't want to feel damaged,
and doesn't want to harm others.
She whispers,
“We all want to be good people,
in the eyes of our mothers”.

But that's just the thing, routine takes work,
and self deprecation stains our progression.
She had to move through her past,
then forgive herself.

And Beth closes her eyes
Brushes off the dust

Her condition started to improve.
She finally found rest.
she started to feel happy.
And she left the past behind her.

"Everyone deserves to be happy.”
Her mother chuckles on the phone.

Happy tears fill up her eyes,
as the call comes to a close.

She won’t be controlled by her monsters.

Instead she chose to feel better.

At thirty years old,
she's reminded her dreams can't be killed.
At thirty years old,
her full story can be told.

Rebuild yourself to reshape your world.

She won’t see you in hell.


from But first they must catch you​.​.​., released June 2, 2016



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